open eyes, open heart

Sometimes I go under water for too long. I forget to take that extra breathe when I need it. I get to comfortable and i fall asleep in what is most comfortable. Life passes you by, seasons pass, people pass, love passes.. and you to pass through seasons. Sleeping, just sleeping. Suddenly a light or instead a fire lights up my heart, and I can feel. The wind brushes my face, and suddenly I am awake. I won't let let much get past me now. I have the tools necessary now to move on, I wont make those mistakes again, who gives up this moment? To just feel drowned all over again.

Well.. I do. Apparently I go through this cycle countless times, and then ready set go.. I am alive again. It's what we do, we let people push us... we let people walk all over us. They take and take and take. Some of us are so nice we let this happen our whole life.

To be alone. So beautiful. Listening to your own breathe, believing in the power of yourself.. and what YOU are capable of. Not always do you need to know someone else loves you. I know many people love and care for me. But I am, ME.. me me me is the most important at the end of the day. I have no one else but myself to blame for anything, ever.

Oh hello you, old feeling. You seem to make me feel comfortable, I will just stay awhile and fall asleep in your arms.. why leave this feeling? It's all that feels comforting right now. Why go to sleep by myself when I have you, the old familiar feeling holding me and keeping me warm.