nothing is as it has been. i miss your face like hell.
Today was beautiful. It is absolutely amazing how spring captures my heart. It's like I fall in love with this season more and more every year. The brisk air and smell clings to me and gives me a hug as I walk. As the days get longer my smile seems more sincere and more at peace my heart falls. This evening I was with a dear friend and we were at the brandon hills briefly and I just looked around and saw the beauty in life I had lost contact with. I often associate my being and presence with the heaviness of mistakes I have made and debt I have accumulated. Its like it sits on my chest and it makes it difficult to breathe. This weight gets heavy to carry through the winter months and I have no outlet or place to let it go, as spring comes along I have that outlet and it flows. I am so blessed and thankful for this season.
I decided to start my jewellery again. Another good place for me to express myself. I get so excited when I am inspired and find a new way to put something together. I am waiting on some feathers to arrive and I can't handle my excitement as I always find a new design every season. It's like my way of shedding something old to something new in a new design. Have you ever wondered where our motivation or inspiration comes from? The inspiration to finish that degree.. or that inkling to take off traveling without reason or logic. Or to take that chance in a new relationship. Its amazing how life unfolds when we follow those little pushes the universe provides for us. It's almost a safety net because we will always have a next step to take, a next decision to make, a next mistake to make. It makes me feel as if we are all on the right path even if it makes zero sense, I find a lot of comfort in that. I guess what I am getting at is it is key to follow that instinct we are so blessed to have. We need to feel love more. I am so thankful for the life I have lived so far. I have spent so much of my life being in love, not only with people however as well as places and the magic we cannot see. Do not loose sight of what is love and what we think is love. We need to spend more time being in love and in appreciation for this moment. Love yourself first. Then take a look around and love the shit out of whats around you. Its truly sad when people don't feel that magic often in their daily lives. Especially living life going to a job thats not meant for you, or surrounding yourself with people who are not conducive to your peace. Or speaking from experience staying with someone in a relationship that causes more grief then happiness and the "working through it" phase lasts longer than it should.
Well happy spring. Enjoy what is surrounding you.
love love love.
I decided to start my jewellery again. Another good place for me to express myself. I get so excited when I am inspired and find a new way to put something together. I am waiting on some feathers to arrive and I can't handle my excitement as I always find a new design every season. It's like my way of shedding something old to something new in a new design. Have you ever wondered where our motivation or inspiration comes from? The inspiration to finish that degree.. or that inkling to take off traveling without reason or logic. Or to take that chance in a new relationship. Its amazing how life unfolds when we follow those little pushes the universe provides for us. It's almost a safety net because we will always have a next step to take, a next decision to make, a next mistake to make. It makes me feel as if we are all on the right path even if it makes zero sense, I find a lot of comfort in that. I guess what I am getting at is it is key to follow that instinct we are so blessed to have. We need to feel love more. I am so thankful for the life I have lived so far. I have spent so much of my life being in love, not only with people however as well as places and the magic we cannot see. Do not loose sight of what is love and what we think is love. We need to spend more time being in love and in appreciation for this moment. Love yourself first. Then take a look around and love the shit out of whats around you. Its truly sad when people don't feel that magic often in their daily lives. Especially living life going to a job thats not meant for you, or surrounding yourself with people who are not conducive to your peace. Or speaking from experience staying with someone in a relationship that causes more grief then happiness and the "working through it" phase lasts longer than it should.
Well happy spring. Enjoy what is surrounding you.
love love love.
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